{"id":141494,"date":"2023-09-21T00:24:59","date_gmt":"2023-09-21T00:24:59","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/celebrity-hub.com\/?p=141494"},"modified":"2023-09-21T00:24:59","modified_gmt":"2023-09-21T00:24:59","slug":"naomi-campbell-admits-she-was-killing-herself-during-drug-addiction","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/celebrity-hub.com\/celebrities\/naomi-campbell-admits-she-was-killing-herself-during-drug-addiction\/","title":{"rendered":"Naomi Campbell admits she was 'killing' herself during drug addiction"},"content":{"rendered":"
Naomi Campbell has opened up about her battle with drug and alcohol addiction in her early modelling days for the candid new documentary, The Super Models.<\/p>\n
The fashion icon, 53, claimed she started to abuse substances as a way to deal with the grief of her childhood abandonment issues – as well as the shocking death of her close friend and beloved designer\u00a0Gianni Versace.<\/p>\n
In the Apple TV+ docuseries, the runway legends\u00a0opens up about her game-changing career path alongside fellow super models Cindy Crawford, Linda Evangelista\u00a0and Christy Turlington.<\/p>\n
However, the four-episode project took time to reflect on the tougher moments which took place during the height of their fame – with Naomi admitting that she was slowly ‘killing’ herself early in her career due to the amount of drugs she took in the early 90s.<\/p>\n
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Naomi Campbell opened up about what led to her her battle with drug and alcohol addiction in her early modelling days\u00a0<\/p>\n
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The fashion icon explained that\u00a0the shocking death of her close friend and beloved designer Gianni Versace was a huge trigger; pictured together in 1995<\/p>\n
‘Grief has been a very strange thing in my life because it doesn\u2019t always [show],’ the mother-of-two explained. ‘I go into a shock and freak out when it actually happens, and then later is when I break. But I kept the sadness inside, I just dealt with it.’<\/p>\n
The fashion world was rocked when famed designer\u00a0Giovanni Maria ‘Gianni’ Versace was shot dead outside his Miami Beach home in 1997.<\/p>\n
Naomi had developed a close bond with the Italian fashion icon and was one of many who had been left heartbroken by the loss of his life.<\/p>\n
Speaking about the special place he held in her heart, Naomi explained: ‘[Late designer] Azzedine Ala\u00efa was my papa. With him, I learnt about chosen families. The same for Gianni Versace.\u00a0<\/p>\n
‘He was very sensitive to feeling me, like, he pushed me. How would push me to step outside and go further when I didn\u2019t think I had it within myself to do it. So, when he died, my grief became very bad.’<\/p>\n
She continued: ‘When I started using, that was one of the things I tried to cover up, was grief. Addiction is such a\u2026 it\u2019s just a bulls**t thing, it really is.\u00a0<\/p>\n
‘You think, \u201cOh it\u2019s gonna heal that wound”. It doesn\u2019t. It can cause such huge fear and anxiety. So I got really angry.’<\/p>\n
The British-born model famously collapsed at a 1999 photo shoot after five years of cocaine addiction. The scary moment prompted her to check into rehab that year.<\/p>\n
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Naomi admitted that she had been ‘killing’ herself due to the amount of drugs she took in the early 90s<\/p>\n
In the confessional, Naomi made it clear that she was aware of how her substance abuse led her down a life-threatening path as she added: ‘When you try to cover something up, your feelings\u2026 You spoke about abandonment. I tried to cover that with something. You can\u2019t cover it. I was killing myself. It was very hurtful.’<\/p>\n
She also made light references to her previous assault convictions, the first in February 2000, which saw her plead guilty in Toronto to assaulting her personal assistant with a mobile phone in September 1998. Several other employees and associates came forward with claims of abuse by 2006.<\/p>\n
‘For my mistakes, I\u2019ve always owned up to them. I chose to go to rehab, Naomi stated. ‘It was one of the best and only things I could have done for myself at that time. It is scary to pick up the mirror and look into the mirror. It is scary, and it\u2019s taken me many years to work on and deal with.’<\/p>\n
The model claimed a large trigger for her substance abuse was her unresolved abandonment issues from growing up without a father figure.<\/p>\n
Naomi was born to Jamaican-born dancer Valerie Morris and has never met her father, who abandoned her mother when she was pregnant.\u00a0<\/p>\n
The documentary highlighted Naomi’s previous comments about the issue from her 2000 interview with Barbara Walters in which she stated: ‘There\u2019s a lot of issues that I have from childhood. Well, for instance, not knowing your father, not seeing your mother. That brings up a lot of \u2026 it manifests a lot of feelings.\u00a0<\/p>\n
‘One of those feelings\u2026 absolutely is anger. But I think that\u2019s a really normal thing. I\u2019ve not always displayed my anger in the appropriate time. It\u2019s always been an unappropriate time. But it\u2019s a manifestation of a deeper issue, anger.’<\/p>\n
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The model claimed another trigger for her substance abuse was her unresolved abandonment issues from growing up without a father figure<\/p>\n
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Naomi was born to Jamaican-born dancer Valerie Morris and has never met her father, who abandoned her mother when she was pregnant\u00a0<\/p>\n
She continued: ‘And that, for me, I think is based on insecurity, self-esteem and loneliness, and being abandonment. That\u2019s where my core issues were abandonment and rejection.\u00a0<\/p>\n
‘That puts me in a real vulnerable space, and everyone thinks, \u201cOh, Naomi\u2019s a really tough girl and really strong\u201d. But that\u2019s what I want to appear to people to be like, because if I fear that I don\u2019t, they\u2019re gonna just walk all over me if they really knew.’<\/p>\n
Reflecting on her journey in the documentary, Naomi admitted: ‘It does still come up sometimes. But I just now have the tools how to deal with it now when it comes up.\u00a0<\/p>\n
‘I have to think of something outside of myself. Something greater than myself.’<\/p>\n
The model also revealed her battle has helped her to guide others as they faced similar struggles as she continued: ‘If I have people in my life that I love and I see that they need help, of course I\u2019m going to offer my help. I\u2019m there, I\u2019m very loyal to the people that I love.’<\/p>\n
Designer Marc Jacobs then spoke about Naomi reached out to help doing his own time of crisis, while troubled designer John Galiano explained that the supermodel \u2018brought joy when I was in a place that was so dark\u2019.\u00a0<\/p>\n
He gushed: ‘Naomi did arrange for me to go to rehab in Arizona. I mean, she\u2019s super in every way. So it\u2019s good that I tell this story because apart from work, she\u2019s human too.’<\/p>\n
The Apple TV+ documentary charts the rise of the women who earned millions, dated movie stars and cemented their status of supermodels after that iconic music video for George Michael’s track, Freedom, in 1990.\u00a0<\/p>\n
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The Apple TV+ docuseries sees the runway icon open up about her game-changing career alongside fellow super models Linda Evangelista,\u00a0Cindy Crawford and Christy Turlington<\/p>\n
It’s the first time all four of the surviving icons – Tatjana Patitz died earlier this year of breast cancer – have come together to discuss the phenomenon in depth.<\/p>\n
While the series basks in the exceptional beauty of the women it doesn’t shy away from\u00a0the uglier issues they faced, such as domestic abuse and racial inequality.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Typically reserved\u00a0Linda Evangelista is seen in tears and she opens up about being left disfigured by a failed cosmetic procedure.<\/p>\n
Meanwhile the Canadian beauty also shares claims that ex-husband G\u00e9rald Marie abused her during their five-year marriage.<\/p>\n
Cindy Crawford recalls an uncomfortable interview with Oprah Winfrey in 1986 that left her feeling like ‘chattel’.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Elsewhere,\u00a0Naomi\u00a0reveals she is perimenopausal after being captured suffering a ‘hot flush’ during a photoshoot in the docu-series.<\/p>\n
The Supermodels is available to stream now on Apple TV+.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n